Broken Ok so me and my mum fell out
she told me to leave her alone and for 2 days ive stayed in my room and havent spoken to anyone but people online and on the forums. And all she has done is call me names.
Shes called me a slag about 7 times in the past few days and all other names.
I think my phsyc is worried about me, she phoned today because me and my mum had a row yesterday and i repeated a comment that jess had said big mistake!
And now my mum has wrote to the hospital manager and saying that jess is out of order and she needs to be sorted out. So i text eileen this morning because i didnt see the letter until after she had gone and told her to ask jess to ring me. And jess phoned me and i explained what had happened and told her how sorry i was but she said "dont worry about it you mum can complain if she wants, and we will reply to her, but you look after you, we are here to support you and we care about you" that made me feel a tad better for a matter of seconds before my mum called me again. And she said "tell her to come along to the CPA meeting" and i said "im not coming, i dont feel so great right now" and jess said "see what you feel like tomorro but we want you to come coz we can sort out what help we can give you now with the situation your in now" and so ive thought about it all day and im gona go and see them tomorro.
I went to a mates over the road and another family friend was in there and she pulled me up and said "did you tell your mam i said something that your mam had told me to you" and i said "no" and she said "thats what she said" and i said "shes just trying to cause trouble ignore her" and then i told her about me being accepted for single key and she was so happ for me even ann another family friend was happy. And then caz said "you mum told us about the comment the doc made and stuff" and i thought what else is she gona do to me.
Im so screwed up inside right now i feel so alone round here i mean my mum asked me to leave her alone and i have but shes still torturing me with the names and now trying to cause trouble with the people round here and apparently she has told caz about some of the stuff shes put in the letter and that.
I dont know what to do right now
Shes set the voices off chanting that im a slag they are echoing through my head i cant make them stop *sobs*
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My heart beat, beats me senselessly
Why has everything got to be so intense with me
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