Registered: 12-2005 Location: Cambridgeshire, UK Posts: 17975 Karma: 128 (+129/-1)
Feeling so tearful... I dont know whats wrong with me lately. I cry when I go to bed, as soon as I get out of bed in the morning I cry, I have a family meal and cry. I spent all therapy session crying. And there is no reason for it! Nothing bad has really happened. Ive been stressed lately about starting work for my Dad on an official basis but other than that there isn't really anything. Not since my brothers crash and going to Rob's grave anyway. I just feel so down all the time. Empty and disconnected. Why do I keep crying? xxxxxx
… hunni, im sorry you feel so low. Nothing in particular needs to trigger it, but its probably all of your emotions from whats been going on. If you havent cried for the small things, then youve probably built them up and now that youve allowed yourself to cry, its all coming out as one.
I hope you feel better soon hunni xx
--- today is a good day, so tomorrow will be a great day x
Registered: 12-2005 Location: Cambridgeshire, UK Posts: 17975 Karma: 128 (+129/-1)
… My brother had a car crash on the 12th December and wrote his car off. The 13th was mine and Rob's 3 yr anniversary of when we got together. He was killed 18 months ago in a car accident. Yes I suppose it could be a build of things. I know that with both types of depression I have one needs a trigger and the other is chemicals in the brain going wrong and that doesnt need a trigger. So it could be that. I suppose a build up would make sense too. Just dont know why I cry when all the stress is over, why dont I cry at the time? xxxxxxxxx
… i dont know hunni, alot of people tend not to cry at the time either because of shock, or because they dont want to feel any worse. I remember when i had a friend that died of cancer, i didnt cry, but a couple of months later i thought about it and couldnt stop crying, and then i started to think about everything else, even if it had happened years ago. The mind works in weird ways, mainly because it thinks that it helps to keep things locked away and not show too emotion.
hope ur feeling better soon hun
xxxxxxx
--- today is a good day, so tomorrow will be a great day x
Registered: 12-2005 Location: Cambridgeshire, UK Posts: 17975 Karma: 128 (+129/-1)
… Thank you both of you. Today has been a bit better. Im hoping this is a change. Its been a few weeks now of feeling terrible so hopefully its passing. We shall see. I see the psych on Monday so hopefully that will produce something. Im thinking about having a complete change of meds and coming off everything and starting again. Ive been on Lofepramine top dose now for a year and no great changes. Anti psychotics helped to start with but this quetiapine although its great (!) for getting me to sleep, it does nothing for my nightmares. So thinking about changing that too. New Year new start and all of that. So maybe going back to the beginning and a clean slate of meds might be good. We shall see. xxxxxxxx
… urgh my mind is going slightly wierd so i cant take in all that youv wrote. but im glad your feeling a bit better. but are you sure coming of all your meds is a good idea? x
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Registered: 12-2005 Location: Cambridgeshire, UK Posts: 17975 Karma: 128 (+129/-1)
… Thats ok Angel. Thank you for replying. Yeah Ive been thinking about meds and now Im not so sure. It seemed like a good plan but last time I had to come off some meds so I could change onto new ones I ended up in hospital for a few days after an od. Ive been thinking about it and now Im not so sure. Ill still bring it up on Monday with him and see what he says. Im thinking about going back on to sertraline. But my rents dont want me to go back onto that one. So we shall see. xxxxxxxxxxxx