Registered: 12-2005 Location: Cambridgeshire, UK Posts: 17975 Karma: 128 (+129/-1)
… Rang today for an appointment...turns out he is going to be off for 6 weeks and no locum!!!! So yeah, spent a lot of today crying. Am so so gutted. They said they've added my name to the list for an appointment in March when he comes back. Its now 6 weeks since I last saw him. So I won't have seen him for 3 months at least by the time I see him again. Am so so disappointed. I was feeling so positive about changing meds and having a real push to getting well. Feel like I cant even be bothered to try anymore. Considering not taking my meds for a week just to see what happens. Annoyingly even if I see my GP again he wont do anything without my psych's permission, and if I went to a locum psych they wouldnt do anything without his say so either. So well and truely FUCKED. I dont think I care anymore.
… you have to keep caring hun, you can give up now when youve gotten this far! You are such a strong person and you have all of us around you, plus your friends and family! You can keep fighting without medication and without a psych, you can fight using pure willpower because you are such a strong and wellminded person! dont give up hun xx
--- today is a good day, so tomorrow will be a great day x
Registered: 01-2006 Location: the armpit of the uk Posts: 3608 Karma: 32 (+32/-0)
… oh hunni im sorry that ure nt getting an appt but keep positive and maybe go walking (if ure knees are up to it of course) with nula?
im online till late most nights and nearly all day too so im here if u wanna shout scream or just vent ok hunni
love si xxx
--- IF YOUR NOT LIVING YOUR LIFE ON THE EDGE YOUR TAKING UP TOO MUCH ROOM!!!!
Registered: 12-2005 Location: Cambridgeshire, UK Posts: 17975 Karma: 128 (+129/-1)
… Thank you both of you. I needed the encouragement. I wish I could come off all my meds. Sometimes I think I'll give it a try and other times I just know it will be a disaster. Part of me knows coming off meds would cause a real crash and that it would be the worst thing I could do. I know I'm really bad not on meds. Ive been on them for ten years now. But part of me is getting a bit of an obcession with it and sometimes I just think what the hell? I dont know. My heads a real mess at the moment. I cant think about anything clearly at all. xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Registered: 12-2005 Location: Cambridgeshire, UK Posts: 17975 Karma: 128 (+129/-1)
… Heard today that they have got a locum in and they rang me to say I could see him if I wanted to. Quite nice of her really to think of me actually. But anyway, going to see the locum a week tomorrow so who knows, he might turn out to be helpful. I dont think he will do anything about meds without my normal psych's permission but it would be good to have a chat about things. xxxxxxx
Re: Feeling so tearful... Glad to hear it. Hope it goes well. Chat might help a bit even if things cant be done meds wise. At least then it wil be on record for regular psych to c wen they get back.
Registered: 12-2005 Location: Cambridgeshire, UK Posts: 17975 Karma: 128 (+129/-1)
… Yes thats a good point. It will be on record. That could be useful...Going to try and keep busy til Friday. According to the receptionist he used to work for them and is very good and she thinks it would be good for me to see someone. So thats encouraging. Its good to know he has such a good reputation with them. xxxxxxxxx
… Keeping busy is a good plan! and its good that youve got an appointment, something is better than nothing! Keep fighting hun, i know you're strong enough!
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--- today is a good day, so tomorrow will be a great day x