abandoned I abandoned you all, for a very long time and im sorry...
but now i need you again im not depressed as such but i know its coming...
everythings a little messed up at the moment, i keep getting bad news from every angle and as a result my brain is in overdrive trying to work out what is true and what is false.
During the times that my brain is not working so hard, im left worrying about soo many people who seem to be struggling right now!
confused, concerned and yeah....
love you all, missed you guys xxx
--- today is a good day, so tomorrow will be a great day x
ok, so ive rang the doctor and asked for some anti-depressants, its probably best to be safe ather than sorry and start them now when i know that i might be going downhill...
on the family front well... um.. things are still a nightmare and the main cause of my downfall. Im very concerned about my mum atm who is not coping too well with everything thats going on ive never had to watch a family member go through what i feel and is horrible
im worried about friends, and also feel sooo guilty about not being there
too many regrets i guess
too much going through my mind
and maybe, just maybe, too much to get through
--- today is a good day, so tomorrow will be a great day x