Registered: 12-2005 Location: UK Posts: 5806 Karma: 27 (+27/-0)
Re: An Impossible Princess Diary *trig probably + definately lang* dum dum dum almost 3 months of no si'ing...and yet its what i think about most of the time hah. the other night i was watching this film...and a guy got burnt on his arm and then all i could think of was burning myself...most of the time though i think of cutting...guess it doesnt help that my bf has really bad scars...i always look and have urges to do similar...i guess its just because i'm run down...and that i want to si...
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queen of darkness the princess of the house of pain
Registered: 12-2005 Location: UK Posts: 5806 Karma: 27 (+27/-0)
Re: An Impossible Princess Diary *trig probably + definately lang* my mouth is numb but slowly the pain is coming back.
its weird i've gone so long without si'ing...well i gave mysself a nasty bruise on my shoulder a while back...but i havent cut heh...shame i cant stop thinking about it though :?
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queen of darkness the princess of the house of pain
Registered: 12-2005 Location: UK Posts: 5806 Karma: 27 (+27/-0)
Re: An Impossible Princess Diary *trig probably + definately lang* o..........kay well i feel like a !@#$ so yeah...i'm having a !@#$ fantastic week...think i may hide now ta ta.
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queen of darkness the princess of the house of pain
Registered: 12-2005 Location: UK Posts: 5806 Karma: 27 (+27/-0)
Re: An Impossible Princess Diary *trig probably + definately lang* if you feel like crap dont read it...
whats the point in thinking positive? the answer never is...it hits you hard...you are unimportant you're nothing but a memory in the minds of those so called "friends" there is no point in fighting the pain inside...theres no point in pretending you're important to someone...in the end you're alone...sure you can build up your empire have billions to your name, have a fan base the size of a country or 5 or 20...but you'll never truely be important...you're a facade...
you could be someone who takes care of those around you never so much as a thank you or by your leave...you can believe, i'm doing good that makes me happy...but not really you're unimportant to those around you...when you disappear for a week or three no one will remember you exist out of sight and out of mind...you are invisible to those around you...you get struck be it physically or verbally and those around will never see you.
the glory of the human ignorance.
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queen of darkness the princess of the house of pain
Registered: 12-2005 Location: UK Posts: 5806 Karma: 27 (+27/-0)
Re: An Impossible Princess Diary *trig probably + definately lang* this morning (didn't get home til 7am) i had the most fucked up dream. dunno if this could be classed as triggy.
I was in a fire at this house that was full of kids, a couple of my mates and other people i didn't know. In my dream i kept saying "not again, what's it with this house?" so according to my dream this house is always being set on fire.
I was walking around the house looking for a family member but i couldn't find them and i kept getting pushed back from the rush of people trying to get out the only door in the house. Eventually I got dragged out by someone and then for some reason the door snapped shut and no one else could get out.
A whole crowd was standing watching the fire and you could see the kids and adults that were left in the house crammed against the windows scrambling to try and get out the flames eventually engulfing them all.
It was so eerie i can't get that last image out of my head.
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queen of darkness the princess of the house of pain