Drop out ive left uni, ......... and i dont plan on going back. i felt so elated to begin with, all the fear and pain that i felt everyday of just draggin myself into a place i hated and didnt want to be...just went....
i was on the bus today and it dawned on me, ... and now i just feel so sad........
i imagined myself at my graduation - if i had stayed - and having photos taken with my mum n step dad.......
them looking so happy, and being so proud of me......
now what have i got. working part time, my hours to be cut, no plans, ......... and nothing for my parents to call the rest of my family about.....
ive never done anything to make them proud. i always give up. give in.
i couldnt stand being there anymore........ ihad to go........ i know my step dad is dissapointed. when i asked him had i made him feel like that ...... he didnt really answer.........
i just............. what am i doing. i never wanna go back, but if i dont............ im never gonna achieve anything........ ill be the first cousin in my family to give up on uni......... my mum will be the only one with a daughter who didnt graduate......
Registered: 12-2005 Location: Cheshire, UK Posts: 12111 Karma: 46 (+46/-0)
… can u perhaps do a course part time and still work at the same time? then at least u dont have to be there all the time... was it the course that u were doing that u didnt enjoy or was it just the whole being at uni thing? your not a !@#$ up hun u have to do what u want with your life not what other people want u to do, if u do that u wont be happy with your decisions and then will regret stuff... xx
--- Its not about where youre at, its where youre going that matters!!
Re: Drop out achievement comes from the heart you can get all sort of education, without having to go to uni, that can be done in your time when your ready for it. I think you parents would be proud no matter what you do.
Registered: 08-2006 Location: Standing in the wreckage Posts: 2212 Karma: 10 (+10/-0)
Re: Drop out I would also recomend checking on going part time. I also found I couldn't take the stress of going full time. so that's what I did (with nearly 3 years compleetly not going after my dad had a stroke) . It took me 11 years, some semesters I only took one class, but I could not have been prouder of myself if I had done it in 4. When I lose enough weight I'll be happy to wear my school ring again (they make some quite lady like ones now).
So I hope you will try to go back. Good Luck!
I also learned quite a lot on my own as well so agree with jacky on that. Have a decent knowledge of historical clothing/costume from learning on my own. (which also includes knowing enough to know when I don't know..lol), and various other things.
Registered: 12-2005 Location: Cambridgeshire, UK Posts: 17975 Karma: 128 (+129/-1)
… look into doing part time college courses? or perhaps a correspondace course? that way u can achieve better pay and a better job and really start working ur way up the ladder. thats an achievement in itself. just because u havent continued with uni it doesnt mean that u cant achieve or make ur parents proud. do little things around the house to help them. look into courses. talk to them about what u want to do with ur life. discuss why uni wasnt right for u. that way they will understand more. and hunni, ur their daughter, they will always be proud of u and love u no matter what happens in ur life. xxxxxxxxxx